Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Sleep, and other things I like...

Do you think famous people ever dream about being anonymous?
Working a job at a bank, maybe, or in a hospital overnight - so they can come home and watch movies and drink coffee all day?
Its not bad really.
Normal life is not bad.
Its sort of like that old saying, 'You don't have to have a lot of money to have style.'
I guess you don't have to have a lot of profile to live a large life.

I like music, but I think I like quiet even more; thats probably why I gravitated toward writing as a hobby. But I always wanted to be in a band.
Come to think of it, I don't really know why anymore; I don't envy my friends in bands.
Not really. (Maybe a little)
You always work with someone thats not as committed as you, spending time in bars - gravitating toward a late-night lifestyle, doing songs that probably at least half-bore-the-shit-out-of-you at least half of the time.
I just want to learn a few songs and take them to an open mic.

I used to give myself these guilt trips; I was like a walking guilt trip.
Regretting that I hadn't done this or that with my life, that I wasn't here or there by this age.
29 is still pretty young.
When your car goes into the ditch, I guess there's no point in focusing where you're not going - the focus should be on getting your car out of the fucking ditch.
My car was in the ditch for awhile....

Not being depressed is probably the single greatest thing I ever did for myself;
Picking a puddle of mess up off the floor and having enough clout to say,
"This is NOT how I'm about to roll for another decade."
If you stay in one room too long, not only will the carpet get vacuumed around you, the housekeepers will expect you to remain there as well.
Surround yourself by people who move you.
Become someone who moves.
If you find someone to get in your way, ask them to kindly step out of it, move around them, or lastly, move them.
Just be careful - they will resist.

I like my early mornings, the gym, and my little office where nobody ever bothers me...
even though I get lonely back there sometimes.
I like my house with my 2 cats (its technically their house)
And I like my summer trips to California, and Texas.
I love Santa Monica Pier, and I love my friends and my parents.
And life, even if it was a struggle to get this one,
Or maybe because it was a struggle to get this one.

I haven't written in a long time, or played any music.
I guess I was lucky; I was given an opportunity that was entirely different and it entirely changed my thinking.
Like that saying, 'Its the journey, not the destination.'

After two hallmark card sayings in one entry thats probably a good place to stop.
I also love my sleep. :) ZZzzz

1 comment:

Lasferatu said...

"This is NOT how I'm about to roll for another decade." Fuckin' FOR REALS!!!!